STARVING ARTIST DO WHAT YOU LOVE

DO WHAT YOU LOVE AND MAKE A LIVING AT IT
ps i know the punctuation is fucked on this one, but this one is a sad sack piece.

      So they say do what you love, and you will never work a day in your life. They say find your passion, and then make a living doing it. That is the biggest load of horseshit I have ever ran across. I love to write, I love to make youtube vids on my channels, Leeland Bullock, and Huxlee29.

     Though, one little thing, I CANNOT MAKE A FUCKING LIVING AT IT. No I have to do a job, the daily grind like everyone else, and dream. That is all I really fucking have. I have tried to use my artistic side to do for my family and all these months in. Nothing to show for it.

     I can not even get a bank to give me a small loan to start my online business for video games, All because, one credit card, Ok I got late and then behind, then further behind, but one day a few years ago, I paid it all in full. It was charged off, but paid in full no settling because, in end a settle is just to make them leave you alone.

     So I, as many other are, am stuck inside my own head. Knowing that I will teeth pull, struggle, trod, and trudge. Through the pit of shit, to scrape what I can to do less than what is required. I will suffer eternally, just so I can endure one more week, of paycheck to paycheck.

     I feel a jealousy for others who are gifted wealth overnight. That all financial issues in a snap go away. That now their family, children, spouse. Will no longer have to struggle. That they can spend all manner of time with their family. Go on vacations, get the kids what they need, and want when required without wondering if there is enough cash in the bank to even get gas to go to work.

     I have some 30 videos on youtube, monetized to try and make some revenue from my time put into them. I have an A-store from amazon to try and make sales, but never have made a single one. I have this blog with ads just in case someone sees something they like. Trying to use what i know best to try and provide some extra income into my house without sacrificing time with my family to do so. 

So sorry but I have to say that following your passion or your dream, and make it work for you only works, if your passion or dream is. Being a scientist, engineer, investment banker, stock broker, doctor, lawyer, or any profession that can make big dollar bills.

But if you want to be a painter, poet, writer, craft maker, musician, your chances are slim. Slimmer still if your a dime a dozen. Even worse, when your talent gets seen some 10 years later scribbled on a bathroom stall because that was the day you gave up and let your heart die. 

In end, just grow up, do the grind, struggle paycheck to paycheck, then die, or  Go to college, find that dream in a million dollar job and do what you love because what you love actually pays.

This is Huxlee29, saying GO FUCK YOURSELF!