STARVING ARTIST DO WHAT YOU LOVE

DO WHAT YOU LOVE AND MAKE A LIVING AT IT
ps i know the punctuation is fucked on this one, but this one is a sad sack piece.

      So they say do what you love, and you will never work a day in your life. They say find your passion, and then make a living doing it. That is the biggest load of horseshit I have ever ran across. I love to write, I love to make youtube vids on my channels, Leeland Bullock, and Huxlee29.

     Though, one little thing, I CANNOT MAKE A FUCKING LIVING AT IT. No I have to do a job, the daily grind like everyone else, and dream. That is all I really fucking have. I have tried to use my artistic side to do for my family and all these months in. Nothing to show for it.

     I can not even get a bank to give me a small loan to start my online business for video games, All because, one credit card, Ok I got late and then behind, then further behind, but one day a few years ago, I paid it all in full. It was charged off, but paid in full no settling because, in end a settle is just to make them leave you alone.

     So I, as many other are, am stuck inside my own head. Knowing that I will teeth pull, struggle, trod, and trudge. Through the pit of shit, to scrape what I can to do less than what is required. I will suffer eternally, just so I can endure one more week, of paycheck to paycheck.

     I feel a jealousy for others who are gifted wealth overnight. That all financial issues in a snap go away. That now their family, children, spouse. Will no longer have to struggle. That they can spend all manner of time with their family. Go on vacations, get the kids what they need, and want when required without wondering if there is enough cash in the bank to even get gas to go to work.

     I have some 30 videos on youtube, monetized to try and make some revenue from my time put into them. I have an A-store from amazon to try and make sales, but never have made a single one. I have this blog with ads just in case someone sees something they like. Trying to use what i know best to try and provide some extra income into my house without sacrificing time with my family to do so. 

So sorry but I have to say that following your passion or your dream, and make it work for you only works, if your passion or dream is. Being a scientist, engineer, investment banker, stock broker, doctor, lawyer, or any profession that can make big dollar bills.

But if you want to be a painter, poet, writer, craft maker, musician, your chances are slim. Slimmer still if your a dime a dozen. Even worse, when your talent gets seen some 10 years later scribbled on a bathroom stall because that was the day you gave up and let your heart die. 

In end, just grow up, do the grind, struggle paycheck to paycheck, then die, or  Go to college, find that dream in a million dollar job and do what you love because what you love actually pays.

This is Huxlee29, saying GO FUCK YOURSELF!

Mimi Faust sex tape, Paul Walker, Justin Beiber

Mimi Faust

     Well yet another person with, yet another sex tape. But instead of them being ashamed of the fact

this is coming to light. They are delighted about it. 

     That leaves me to think, are you such an attention whore, that you would show this to the world to get a second glance as you walk down the street. Are you so greedy that any gains made from the whoring of your body and private sex life is fine with you.

     This world lacking so hard in any remaining moral Fiber, dignity, no wonder the Jesus freaks scream god has abandoned us. Fuck I would abandon this fucking shit hole too. I am not even that religious.

Talking about the lack of any morality left in people. Has anyone else heard the new of disgusting fucks selling off the parts of Paul Walkers wreck. You could care less about the man and his sad family. But fuck let me loot the wreck while he is FUCKING DEAD INSIDE THE CAR, so I can make a quick buck of some sick fuck fan. 

WHAT IN THE HOLY FUCKING HELL ARE WE COMING TO?!

Now to that pretentious little shit, Justin Beiber, just to correctly spell his name makes me want to cut my own fucking hands off. Just the thought of this cunt fuck makes me sick, makes my mouth quiver saying the name. My fingers fumble and vomit typos all over. Like I am talking about something that is better left in the quiet.

This fuck needs to be in prison, but like all rich fucking stars, they walk with a slap on the wrist. They get away with crimes that me or you would pay the piper, and then some for. JUSTICE IS NOT BLIND. IT JUST TURNS A BLIND EYE WHERE MILLION DOLLAR DIP SHITS ARE CONCERNED!

to wrap this fucking grotesque written anger rant up. Visit YouTube to see my. top ten famous people who should have went to prison. 

It should be up in a few day. Where you can see the anger in my face for real. 

thanks for reading this.

JUSTIN BEIBER SUPER DOUCHE BAG!

THE BEIBS A BITCH

     That is right. I have never liked Justin Beiber, mainly because when i looked into his eyes I could see that he was full of himself. That he knew that the girls fawned over him. What he didn't seem to realize, if he didn't have money. He would just be the cute guy in school, and no where near as adored. 

    The breaking point for me was long before all this new Fangster or Fake gangster stuff came in. I could adoringly call him a F.A.G. Fake Ass Gangster. That and because he is totally in love with himself. Though, the point of my breaking was. A video posted by a fan of his on youtube. She saw him in a store took out her camera phone. Her words were "Hi Justin" so timid and shy. Like a dream to her. His words to her were. "Get that thing out of my face." and he shove her camera phone away.

    There is the possiblity that she was chubby, or not attractive, but it did not mean that he should treat her like human waste. With hateful attitude and disrespect. He could have responed with a polite wave, and a how are you doing, or a Hi back. Then went about his business.

   That is not the first report, or the last report of his asshole behavior, and hatefulness to some of his fans. There have been a few pictures of him being nice. But those were during event where he was being watched by a lot of people. So acting like a dick would not have been in his best interest.

     Now you got this asshole, getting drunk, drag racing. Then acting like a even bigger dick hole. Then even going as far as laughing about it. Because, he think is he so adored, that he is just gonna skate free. Which since the way i see justice for the regular folks and justice for money go. He probably will get a fine and set free with a hardy do not do that again ok little man. 

    Though, the way beiber is, his best analogy is one taken from the movie THIS IS THE END. He may act tough but he is as soft as baby shit. I believe a 10 year old princess could beat his ass. 

    My biggest hopes are. THAT HE IS BURNED AT THE STEAK, HIS CAREER DIES, AND HE ENDS UP PARKING CARS LOOKING FOR A GIG. OR WORKING AS A MALL COP.

Miley Cyrus Acting Like a Slut messing up our kids.

OUR KIDS AND WHORE

ROLE MODELS

     Well fuck, the tittle says it all does it not! I am real tired of seeing this cunt in the news. I mean holy fucking shit there are more important things than what new item she went on licking spree with. I know this messed up bitch is trying to give Disney the big FUCK YOU. You think she could have accomplished that with some fucking taste.

    Instead she took a whole generation of kids that grew up, wanting to be the morally honest role model of Hannah Montana, to twerking at parties making themselves to be slut whores. Parents of the kids are having to take a harsh hand at punishment, just to get the new role model image out of their kids minds.

    I rather my daughter emulate Lady Gaga than, Miley Cyrus. Cause you don't see Lady Gaga acting like a huge fucking skank bag.  i mean look at this, this is what are kids are growing up to act like. 

     I am sorry i was really trying to find something that wasn't repulsive. It just cant be fucking done. I have had to see this ship all over. With her swinging around naked on a wrecking ball. HAVE YOU EVER LISTENED TO THAT FUCKING SONG. There is no reason for her to swing around naked other than to act like a whore, to say fuck you Disney. 

    She could have done a beautiful video, with her old Hannah style, I can see that song, with her in a white dress or something swinging a hammer at a cinder block or knocking walls down. NOT THIS FUCKING SHIT.

AGAIN I REALLY TIRED TO FIND ONE THAT WAS NOT FUCKING ABSOLUTELY REPULSIVE AND SICKENING. SORRY FOR THE LET DOWN BUT WHAT THE HOLY FUCKING SHIT IS THIS.

     I do not understand the flapping tongue, and foam finger shit she did. Did you see the look on Rihanna's face. Like this is fucking just wrong, so very wrong.

     This is what our children are now modeling themselves after. These images are what our kids are going to see. The same children that loved the sweetheart Hannah Montana, now are going to go to parties, and school, and act like this.

Sadly we cannot lock our children away from this kind of bullshit. We can't even keep it away unless we go drastic. Take away the internet, ipads, tablets, smartphones. Even still they would see at school with friends, who parents have not taken away all the social media electronics.

     So we have to punish, embarrass, and make damn sure with an iron hand that our kids do not go out acting like this. That they know that this is not in anyway from or manner acceptable behavior. Though even the best of parents can fail. Because, when kids reach a certain age, they are going to go behind our back and pretty much do what the fuck they want. All we can do is hope they have learned some common sense.

     I bet it was so much easier to be a parent back in the days before all this horrific shit. Because, you didn't have to shield your child's mind from such blatant whore, slut, skank, behavior. 

     I miss the days, where the TV role models were cartoons, that taught a moral value, and they didn't grow up, they never aged, but the whole time they taught life lessons. Then the kids grew out of the cartoons, most of them had a head on level shoulders, and their was no major worries.

I can honestly say I can't stand this shit.

thanks for reading. Have a happy day, and hope for a better tomorrow.